Day 1. What does that mean exactly?
It’s a new day. A fresh start. A brand spanking new weight loss blog. New friends and a great support system.
I am excited to start this journey. Its been a long time coming, that is for sure! I wanted to take this time to document the past…..so I can more into the future.
I’ve been overweight for a good chunk of my life. My parents divorced when I was 8ish and we moved out of state with my Dad. All that is fine and good……until middle school. We lived in Brunswick, OH at the time and I was a very, very shy girl. Coming into a new school, not knowing anyone….well, that was too much for me to handle. My Dad worked in Cleveland, OH which was a good 45 minutes away. He would have to leave before my brother and I caught the school bus. As soon as he would leave, I would hit the pantry. We always had some sort of Hostess snack. Suzie Q’s were my favorite. I would gorge on those…eating 4 or 5 or 6…enough that I would make myself sick. Then I would call my Dad and tell him I was too sick to go to school. I did this at least 3 times a week. When I did go to school, I didn’t eat any lunch. He finally sat me down and told me that I couldn’t do that anymore and that if I hated it so much, he would move us. In a heartbeat. And so we did.
And this was my first binge/emotional eating episode.
For years, I didn’t eat lunch at school. Until 10th grade. We moved back home – to Spokane, WA. I met my best friend and finally, I had someone to sit at lunch with! I was 145 and felt so fat!! I would sit in the desk with my legs propped up so that my thighs wouldn’t spread. I wore longer sweaters and shirts. I let the fact that I felt fat ruin a lot of things in high school.
After high school, I gained about 60 lbs. When I met my husband, I was 200 lbs. I managed to lose about 20lbs when I moved to New Orleans to be with him and I got a job. Then I got pregnant with my son in 2002. I only gained 15 lbs with him and was back to 200 lbs within a month. Then I lost my job and was unemployed for a year. And I gained 30 lbs. Next came my daughter, and I gained another 20 lbs. So I was sitting at 255 after my daughter was born.
My husband and I went on a diet 2 years ago. We counted calories, journaled our food daily, exercised. He lost 35 lbs. and I lost 30 lbs. We even went to Vegas during that time and I didn’t gain 1 pound! I felt good and I knew that I was getting healthy.
Then I had a health scare……and I my weight in back up. 262. Two hundred and sixty two pounds. I am miserable. I am depressed. I feel out of control of my life. I have no motivation.
And that is why I need you all. And that is why I need to blog this journey. It’s time to be honest about me….about my life….about my weight. It’s about time to own my issues and to quit making excuses!
Thank you for the warm welcome so far. I can’t wait to know you all!
Until next time…….