I want to write more often in here so I guess I will start now.
I’m having a rough morning. I know there are many factors as to why. One of them is that I am so far off any sort of fitness routine that it’s pretty sad.
I’m upset with myself. For 7 weeks I got my butt kicked, I was closely scrutinized…..and here I am 2 weeks out of that and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m not exercising, I’m not eating healthy, I am barely drinking water. What the hell is wrong with me??
I need a kick in the ass.
I need to figure out why I can’t self-motivate. Why do I sabotage myself? Why can’t I just do it?!
Am I so comfortable being overweight that I just don’t care? Am I scared of losing weight? I don’t know.
I shouldn’t need someone to hold my hand, tell me when I should work out, what I should be eating, etc. I should be able to do this on my own. Yet I come up with excuse after excuse as to why I can’t.
I am going to Vegas in 2 weeks and I am hoping that I will be rejuvenated after I get home. Maybe I am just……tired. Maybe I just need a break from every day life.
Someone, please, give me some wise words of wisdom!!